Why I haven't been saying much...

Some test results came back and reported that there were some abnormal cells on my cervix. So, I went in today for a VERY uncomfortable test called a colposcopy, so my doctor could take a closer look at what could have caused the abnormal results. We were hoping that it was nothing to worry about, but unfortunately he found some areas with his fancy microscope that concerned him. He ended up taking some samples to have tested for cancer. He said it didn't look like it was all that bad, but that it was something we definitely need to be concerned about.

If it's not pre-cancerous (God willing), they'll repeat the test after the baby's born, and then take action to destroy or remove the questionable spots. It's possible that childbirth itself could wash away the cells, but it sounds like they were serious enough that my doctor doubted they would go away on their own.

All of this is very strange, because I had normal test results less than 6 months ago -- so it's likely the new crazy hormones with the pregnancy have caused a lot of weird cellular activity.

I'm trying really hard to not let it get me down too much. Right now, the residual pain from the test today is acting as a constant reminder of things that might be wrong or go wrong... and when my mind wanders down that road, I lose it a little bit.

This may be more information than anyone needs to know, but... I don't mind sharing.

Something really strange is happening...

So... I keep having the strangest sensation that whatever I'm sitting on is subtly vibrating... like I'm sitting on a huge vibrating cell phone.

I don't really know what to make of it.

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In response to this post, I got a great email from Colin's dad:

Your sense of vibration is probably due to the fact that your innards, currently a double-occupancy, have been slightly relocated. I suspect you are sitting on a nerve or blood vessel that you didn’t used to sit directly on. Sounds good anyway. Glad to hear you are perfect. I am taking this whole thing low-key. I have told a few people, but I don’t go overboard. My mom, however, may not have mentioned it to a grocery store stocker in Dubuque, but only because she couldn’t get his attention. Eileen is also excited. From this limited number of data points, I would be inclined to think excited is a female thing, but I wouldn’t want to make too many assumptions. Someone once assumed that all odd numbers were prime, and used too few data points: 3’s prime, 5’s prime, 7’s prime, 9’s experimental error, 11’s prime, 13’s prime; must be true.

I guess you should call me Dad.

Love, Dad.

What it feels like...

There's not really much to report, but I thought I'd at least log what I've been noticing. I am:

Really emotional
Really bloated
Really, really tired
A little anxious
Feeling super lazy
Sick of working every weekend
Missing hanging out with Colin
Not fitting in any of my clothes
Loving my little Jho-Jhoes here at home
Wondering if my belly will start to be "cute" anytime in the near future
Excited about the coming months