Keeping this secret...

This could very well be the hardest secret I have ever kept in my whole life. My mind keeps wandering off on its own, creating ways to break the news to everyone.

I would be shouting it out to the world, but there are a few things that keep me in check:

1. Colin isn't quite ready to get the news out. The poor guy is on as much of a rollercoaster of emotions as I am, it seems. He's already turning into the loving, understanding caretaker I always knew he would be... But I think he's worried about how people will take the news.
   
   
2. 4 weeks, 3 days of pregnancy isn't by any stretch of the imagination "out of the woods". I realize that there is a very VERY good chance that something might go wrong sometime soon, and when I tell people, I want it to be real. I want it to stick.
   
   
3. I need to focus on Jess right now -- we're having a baby shower for them in 2 weeks, and there is so much work to be done. I don't want to break the excitement or anticipation for her baby at all... I really want 100% of the baby attention to be on her right now... And the extreme elation that comes from finding out that someone's pregnant doesn't exactly fall within those boundaries.

So, for those of you who will eventually read this and be a little hurt that I didn't just come out with it, these are my reasons. I know that I can be crazily private sometimes. But in this case, I'm not being private for the sake of keeping it to myself. I can't wait to tell everyone!